What can I say?
Im an eternal optimist, holding out for the best despite all evidence to the contrary.
I did not want to accept the facts staring me right in my despondent face.
Milly Cope
I took every bit of contact to mean more than it did.
I tried everything I could think of to maintain contact with you.
I know that now.
At the time, all I knew was that it hurt like hell.
When you fell for her instead, my heart shattered anew.
Id spent months delaying the healing that I so desperately needed and had to start from the very beginning.
Everyone has a breaking point, and that was mine.
I never contacted you again, but I kept track of your budding new romance.
I tortured myself by spying on how happy you were until I couldnt stand it anymore.
Enough was enough, and I knew it was finally time to make a change.
Id put myself through unnecessary suffering for far too long.
The only person hurting me at that point was me I couldnt place blame elsewhere.
I had to take responsibility for my own emotions and begin the healing process.
Actually, it was the most difficult and valuable effort of my entire life thus far.
It was long, and it was uncomfortable, and it was absolutely the best thing Ive ever done.
I know that our relationship happened for a reason and so did our separation.
I accept that were over.
I understand that we were not meant to be forever, and finally, thats okay.
And Im finally, honestly okay with the fact that she isnt me.
