This is me accepting that eventually, I will learn to see that our ending is for the better.
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Updated 5 years ago,November 26, 2019
This is me accepting that youre never coming back.
Im not sure the exact moment that I had this realization.
Flora Westbrook
It could be the in-between moments when I was unoccupied and you sneaked into my mind without my permission.
I couldnt let my obsession with wanting a closure to our ending consumed me.
I couldnt let my past obstructed me to live my present days and allowed reality to slip me by.
This is me accepting that I have to go on without you because life goes on.
I didnt merely lose you that moment when you decided you wanted a way out.
I lose you every day when I had to face a brand new day without you by my side.
I lose my best friend and the one whom I thought knew me the most.
I lose a part of me that believed in how love would conquer all.
However deep within me, I knew that I had to move on.
I had to stop stalking you on your social media.
I had to come clean with everyone that we had ended and not harbored hopes of us getting back.
I had to choose myself and prioritized my well-being over anything else.
After all the tears and heartbreak, I had to pick myself up.
I told myself that if we were really meant to be together, we would be.
But now that we had ended, I should carve out a new beginning for myself.
I would work hard on my goals and slowly, I would build myself up again.
I would get used to my solitude and fall in love with my own company.
I would sit in silence and get attuned to my own feeling.
I would find the passions that stirred my heart and made me excited me about life again.
I would surround myself with people who motivated me and brought me so much joy.
I would focus on my healing and trust that I was making good progress.
Even though I was not there yet, I truly believed that one day I would be there.
One day, you would cross my mind and it wouldnt break me.
One day, I would see you and I would have felt nothing.
