I dont always feel like Im living the life that is an authentic reflection of the person I am.
And I dont always feel like I know myself.
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Updated 6 years ago,March 5, 2019
There are times I dont know my worth.
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I dont know what I deserve because I feed my fear over my confidence.
I dont know what Im capable of because I allow the noise around me to silence my voice.
I stay when I should leave because I think thats loyalty.
I keep toxic people in my life because I think thats what loving people actually means.
I do things I dont want to do because I think I am being selfless.
I dont say what Im actually feeling because I think Im choosing my battles.
There are times I dont love myself.
I dont love my gigantic heart because it gets me in trouble.
I dont love my over-thinking mind because it stops me from being carefree.
I dont love my body because of the barriers I project onto it.
I dont love my anxiety because I cant run away from it.
There are times Im my worst enemy.
I blame myself about things Im not proud about my past because I still struggle with being a human.
I get disappointed in myself when I fail because I hold myself to a standard.
I give up on myself when nothing is working because somehow Im convinced its my fault.
I let myself go when I feel so much pain because I simply dont know how to manage it.
Im not always happy.
Im not always in a good mood.
Im not always grateful to be alive.
There are times I dont like where I am coming from.
I dont like my family because they can be some sort of hell.
I dont like my culture because there are things it glorifies that I am ashamed of.
I dont like my past because it robs me from the happiness I have today.
There are times I dont have it together.
I question my faith because I feel like God has forgotten about me.
I lose my purpose a hundred times because following a passion is not a journey fixed.
Im not proud of what I do for a living because it doesnt reflect my potential.
I dont always feel heard.
I dont always feel cared for.
I dont always feel loved.
There are times I dont want to be seen.
I dont want to be honest about my beliefs because Im tired of being misunderstood.
I dont want to show my scars because people have used them against me before.
There are times I dont feel this world is my home.
I dont always feel a sense of belonging.
I dont always feel like Im living the life that is an authentic reflection of the person I am.
And I dont always feel like I know myself.
