I dont know what a life without out you would even look like or feel like.
But I do know this might be better for both of us.
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Updated 6 years ago,April 5, 2019
Endings are tough.
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Especially when its with someone you thought they would be at the end of the book.
But sometimes people come into our lives for moments at a time just to shake things up a bit.
Teach us a few things.
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Make our lives better.
And Im sure you might feel it too.
Its like we are talking but no one is actually saying anything or saying what needs to be said.
Its like we are going through the motions like we are supposed to but everything is different.
We look the same.
But whats changed is us and who weve become in all this.
And I hate saying goodbye.
Goodbye is a word for strangers but thats kind of what it feels like weve become lately.
I dont want to let go but I cant keep holding onto what isnt anymore.
When I say I love you I mean it.
When I hug you and I want to hold on a bit tighter and not let go.
Everything about us has become so comfortable.
How is it that people who were once so good for each other suddenly arent?
Because when we fight its about little things that dont matter.
Things that used to not bother me suddenly do.
Things I used to look past suddenly I cant shake anymore.
Its staring at my phone waiting to hear from you but knowing I wont.
Its looking back at pictures where everything in those moments were perfect.
I cant explain when or why or who changed exactly.
But maybe it was both of us.
Maybe we outgrew each other.
When I say I love you I want you to know I mean it.
Or rather meant it at one time.
I want to know what its like to look in someones eyes and feel something again.
I want to know what its like to kiss someone and feel it on every inch of my body.
So Ill say it one more time for old times sake.
I think part of me always will.
Ill say it because I mean it.
And Ill end it with a final few words.
You made me who I am.
