Yet the truth is, a conversation changes nothingit wouldnt have fixed the circumstances.

Ive spent a lot of time pretending, especially when it has come to you.

I think its always been that way, if Im honest.

the bright neon lights of Los Angeles, but somehow the lights didn’t shine as bright as they did on her mama’s TV screen

Twenty20 / @losangeles

Because in all the time Ive known you, weve spent it more apart than we ever did together.

The fantasies felt real because I never thought I was asking for much.

I wasnt asking for grand gestures or perfect prose brought to life.

the bright neon lights of Los Angeles, but somehow the lights didn’t shine as bright as they did on her mama’s TV screen

Twenty20 / @losangeles

I really just wanted you, with me, and able to admit that you wanted it too.

Life has a funny way of doing things though.

Sometimes the words show up, but too late, too hollow.

You dont remember the words carrying a melancholy tone to them.

You dont remember the possibility that there could be someone else, someone who wasnt them.

So we avoid it.

We dont have a last conversation, so that we dont have to face the truth.

Life has a funny way of doing things though.

It reminds you that regardless of how much easier you thought it would be to avoid it.

I know now that the only thing that will make things any easier is time.

I know that to pretend any exchange of words couldve mended us is just another way to pretend.