If you are unhappy, choose yourself.
If you are angry all the time, choose yourself.
It also happened to be my first serious relationship and it lasted exactly eighteen months.
God&Man
Truth is it was love, but we didnt make it.
Add to this, the distance, and you have the perfect recipe for chaos.
Our relationship blossomed online for the most part.
We started dating right after he left to go abroad for his education.
And the distance drew me to him.
I would be complicated and difficult and I loved what it symbolized.
God&Man
The first few months were a breeze.
Drunk on the idea of being in love, we made it without any friction whatsoever.
Eventually though, we couldnt gloss over the not so pretty details about where our separate lives were headed.
Being together in person was exhilarating.
It was like finally taking off after cruising mindlessly when we werent in the same country.
Whenever I felt like bringing up the things that bothered me, there was an overwhelming sense of guilt.
We were together and we wouldnt get this again in a few days time.
Should I really be complaining instead of being grateful for what I have?
So when the fights did happen, they were explosive.
His anger issues surfaced for the first time and this pushed me further into my shell.
To others, we were perfect #relationshipgoals, the works.
Needless to say, the end wasnt pretty.
I see now that we didnt make a functional couple.
What should have been perfect in theory didnt work out that way in reality.
When it ended, there was heartache but also a sense of relief.
And in all honesty, it could have worked, had we not been the same people.
You dont need to make yourself feel guilty about backtracking solely based on it being long distance.
If you are unhappy, choose yourself.
If you are angry all the time, choose yourself.
Sometimes, this process is easy, but most times it isnt.
In a long distance relationship, shattering this illusion takes far more time than it would otherwise.
Nearly a year later, we are tentative friends and we realise that we are better this way.
It wouldnt have worked out even if we lived in the same country, or state, or city.
I havent ruled out the possibility of a long distance relationship in the future.
It may work out, or then again, it may not.
And the best we can do is find someone who evolves with us, long distance or not.
