You either love this moment, or you lose it.
You start feeling nothing.
You cannot just be sensitized to one part of your life.
Daria Shevtsova
You cannot allow yourself to feel joy and block off all the rest.
If you love something, youre going to worry about losing it.
If something brings you joy, its also going to bring you sadness.
If something comes easily, fear will, too.
Beginning to heal is not just trying to find happiness again.
Its learning to feel again, however slowly it happens.
Its crying in your car for no reason.
Its being grateful for something small.
Its allowing the waves of grief to crash over you.
Its clutching your pillow and wishing that life would bring someone back, while accepting that it cant.
Its feeling the sunlight on your skin and being happy about it.
Its relaxing into the now.
Its taking a break.
Its knowing theres nothing to worry about.
Its learning to feel again everything, all of it, without limits.
And this is going to be the year that you do it.
This is going to be the year you realize how extraordinarily far you have come.
This is going to be the year that you stop letting your past rob you of your future.
In the process, we learn something important.
Thinking about the past wont change it.
Worrying about the future wont make it better.
Resisting calmness wont shield us from chaos.
Denying happiness wont help us avoid pain.
You either love this moment, or you lose it.
Even the worst things that could happen can ultimately just show you your own strength.
