We spent the whole day together, and I knew something wasnt right.
I shouldve forced you to go…somewhere.
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Updated 4 months ago,January 2, 2025
Youve always been my best friend.
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My fiercest protector, loudest cheerleader.
The person who stood up for me when I couldnt stand up for myself.
The one who believed in me when I was ready to quit.
We raised each other.
Most of my best memories include you.
You used to be my person.
All of my recent memories with you are clouded by a fog of anxiety, guilt, confusion.
I never know which you Ill get when were together.
I wonder what crisis I might be answering the phone to this time.
Will this be the day your addiction finally got the best of you?
Ive never seen a body lose so much blood so fast.
I was eerily calm.
I knew exactly what to do.
I moved you from the bathroom floor to the bed and wrapped you in a sweater.
A little sister should never have to do that.
My heart didnt race.
I dont think I was even surprised.
Then came the guilt.
We spent the whole day together, and I knew something wasnt right.
I shouldve forced you to go…somewhere.
I left for a few hours when it got to be too much for me.
If I hadnt left, would you have gotten so bad?
What wouldve happened if I hadnt come back?
Would you have died?
Would it have been my fault?
Honestly, it wasnt even a hard decision to make.
Youre not you anymore.
You are your addiction.
Everything you do, everything you say, is for one purpose: feeding the addiction.
You dont care about anyone the way you care about the monster who lives inside you.
You nurture it, feed it.
Its turned you into the most selfish person I know.
The big sister who once cared for me now manipulates, lies, twists the story.
Your monster broke you, and you broke us.
You used to be my person.
Now I dont even recognize you.
