Sometimes its easier to pretend not to care or put up a wall to block everything out.
But deep down, you care too much and feel too deeply.
You may want to live on the wild side for a while, going out and partying.
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Or, you may wish for your blankets to swallow you whole, until you disappear into darkness.
You may feel like things are fleeting: one second youre sad, the next youre super energetic.
You may feel these highs and lows more intensely then ever before.
You may feel a little bit crazy, or like you cant control anything anymore.
And the truth is: you dont really have a solid answer.
Youre simply floating: outside of yourself, above the world you were once apart of.
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Youre here, but youre notreallyhere anymore.
Or perhaps its the other way around for you.
Or maybe you dont feel anything at all.
Maybe youre numb, and youve gotten used to the idea of numbness.
Of not feeling or thinking or doing.
Or maybe you have changed so much that youre used to this new lifestyle.
That newness can be addicting, as can the idea of rebelling against yourself.
Escape from your issues or run away from the world for a bit.
But deep down, you care too much and feel too deeply.
You might feel like you dont know up from down or that you dont know which way is right.
You may feel like time is going to slow or slip away.
You might be on an emotional rollercoaster or feel uninspired and unmotivated.
All of this is completely normal.
Hang on and take it easy.
Dont be so hard on yourself, youre doing the best you could right now.
And that is enough, I promise you.
