“You’re okay.
You’re healing.”
Maybe one day I’ll think like that.
Maddi Bazzocco
Theres a part of me that feels lucky.
Maybe because my experience wasnt as bad as others (though still traumatizing nonetheless).
Maybe because I survived it.
Or maybe because Im healing.
Some days are easy and the world is open and golden and I feel lucky.
But there are days when the world feels bleak.
Ive always been a believer in love.
Ive always worn my heart on my sleeve.
Im a hopeless romantic and I own that part of me because it comes so easy to me.
When it comes to intimacy, though, its difficult.
I feel less in control.
I think about him, his hands, his fingers, how they slithered around my neck.
Theres a voice in my head saying,Feel this, the pain.
Here it is again.
I dont know why I cant forget about it, but maybe Im not supposed to.
I mean, trauma is a heavy burden.
Soon, Ill no longer thinkFeel this, the pain,but rather,Youre okay.
Youre healing.Maybe one day Ill think like that.
April is Sexual Assault Awareness Month.
Lets all be a little kinder to each other, okay?
