Because shes seen peoples feelings change that quickly.
Continuing to give and try only to realize it wasnt enough.
And she wants to believe it.
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Shes never been that confident in other people because no one has given her a reason to be.
No one has ever looked at her that sure before.
No one has ever looked at her and talked about the future so she dwells in the past.
Christopher Campbell
Fumbling for the right things to do and say she becomes paralyzed overanalyzing everything.
Shes scared of something going right because all shes ever known are these relationships that havent.
People who have taken her for granted and made her seem like she was the problem.
So she looks at her reflection analyzing flaws trying to master hiding them likeshes the problem, not them.
She stares at a phone thats supposed to keep her connected but it just ends unnecessary anxiety to everything.
Every delay in a response.
Every noise that makes her jump.
Every word so carefully crafted.
Apologies and explanations that arent even needed.
Jumping to conclusions without any justified reason.
Rereading things and saying to herself, its going to be okay.
Needing so desperately for someone else to say that too.
Needing reassurance but not wanting toappear too vulnerableso she stays silent not asking for it.
Needing to be confident in someone but only trusting herself.
Happy almost feeling like a foreign word because shes trying to manage her expectations.
Shes scared let someone that close so she pushes people away.
The truth is shes afraid to get anything right because its only then she has something to lose.
Shes afraid to fall in love and care too much.
But its girls like her whose hearts are painfully on their sleeve.
Girls like her who fear love as much as they believe in it.
Girls like her who need something to believe in other than themselves.
Girls like her who deserve the right bang out of love more than anyone.
Because she deserves someone so much better than everyone shes settled for in the past.
She deserves someone who makes her realize she isnt that hard to love.
