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Updated 7 years ago,November 8, 2017
I was never a cheery child.
For many years, I didnt speak to new people.
Who has actually beat the originalSuper Mario Bros?
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I gave away all my comic books.
I adored the feeling of grabbing the red crayon and smearing the nice white page with cartoon gore.
At 11-years-old, I was sent to a therapist.
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I was in therapy consistently for most of my adolescence.
In fact, some people actually started to gravitate toward meothers that liked the same stuff I did.
Finally, I could talk about stuff like my depression and anxiety in a place without judgement.
I couldnt be a freak because we were all freaks.
It allowed us to explore our feelings and even poke fun at them.
So it helped, but of course it wasnt the cure.
This was hilarious to me.
The drug worked like a monkeys paw, giving contentment and taking away bliss.
My friends were less lucky.
Another friend of mine battled clinical depression until her suicide, also in her early 20s.
Later on, I found out just how rampant depression and alcoholism was in my family.
These were people that, at least to me, were the total opposite of what I was.
They were straitlaced, had desk jobs, loved Sinatra, etc.
So, it wasnt just the freaks who were suffering.
We are all fighting our demons in different ways.
I dont think I would be alive without therapy.
I wanted the game to look scary and strange, but also darkly funny.
Yup, thats what I got, someone would say.
Maybe I would have picked up the depression card and licked the back and stuck it on my forehead.
This is me, I would have said.
This is how it fucking feels.
