Our brains are hurricanes of ‘what ifs’.
Our minds are miles and miles of questions.
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Updated 8 years ago,July 18, 2017
Its not that we dont love you unconditionally.
God & Man
Its not that we want to not trust you.
Its not that we dont believe you.
But we are programmed to overthink.
To take things too seriously.
Our hearts are so gentle and soft, that we overanalyze your every move.
All we do is hope and pray you wont break our hearts.
God & Man
Because before you, everyone else did.
Before you, people gave us reasons to be suspicious.
People gave us reasons not to trust them, and not to believe in their fake promises.
You see, before you?
We didnt have real love.
But youre real love.
And we know that.
But our anxiety unfortunately doesnt.
We think and think some more about how much we are thinking.
But it never stops.
Our brains are hurricanes of what ifs.
Our minds are miles and miles of questions.
We dont know how to make it stop.
Our love for you is strong and powerful.
It is unwavering until anxiety comes along.
And anxiety has no guilt to what it does to us.
Anxiety doesnt give a shit.
Inside, we are crying.
Scared that maybe this time, youll truly leave.
We dont understand why you have become distant.
Or is it just in our heads?
We lose track on whats real and whats not.
In fear that if we speak the truth, that your love will wilt.
Praying you wont notice how we look on the inside.
Hoping you wont figure out all the skeletons in our closet and demons in our heads.
We just nod and smile.
Not giving you any idea how we are truly feeling.
But maybe its better that way.
For you not to know.
For you not to worry.
For you to not have another thing added to your already full plate.
We just cant give you all of us yet.
We cant tell you our secret.
Not until we can fully trust you.
Not until we are convinced that you wont go.
Not until we are certain, that you will never break our hearts.
like dont break my heart.
