She’s trying her best to seem natural.
Like her heart doesn’t jump into her throat the second she realizes you’re in the same room.
Like her heart doesnt jump into her throat the second she realizes youre in the same room.
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So instead of saying whats on the front of her mind, she tries to keep things light.
To hide the fact that shes dying inside.
She acts awkward, because shes in a situation she doesnt want to be in.
But she doesnt want to see you inthis way.
When youre a virtual stranger.
She wants you to realize what youre missing, but she doesnt want to shove it in your face.
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She wants you to come to that conclusion all on your own.
She acts awkward, because shes daydreamed about this moment a million times.
Talking to you again.
But when youre actually right there, in front of her, she loses control of her thoughts.
She forgets what she wanted to say, how she wanted to act.
Her mind goes completely blank.
She acts awkward, because she doesnt know how you feel about her anymore.
She doesnt know if hugging you hello would be comforting or annoying.
She doesnt know what you want from her, what you expect her to do.
She acts awkward, because its weird to be face-to-face with a stranger who knows all of her secrets.
She hates how well you know her.
How you’ve got the option to list out her hopes and dreams and insecurities.
She acts awkward, because shes worried that shes the only one who has lingering feelings.
She doesnt want to embarrass herself, to admit that shes the one who loves more.
She acts awkward, because youve put her in an awkward situation.
You let her go, but you havent left her life.
You pulled yourself away, but not enough.
