No, she cant go back.
Even if she wishes she could.
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Updated 7 years ago,November 2, 2017
She loved you, you know.
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And still, she loved you.
Not only that, but she chose you- because she had other choices.
She couldve stayed single, exactly as she had planned.
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Or she couldve taken up those others vying for her affection right alongside you.
But there was something about you that swept her off her feet.
Something she couldnt quite shake.
So she went for it.
She loved you, and she did it without restraint.
You loved her, too.
At least, she thinks you did.
You really seemed to at the time.
Yet the way she loved you always felt, more, somehow- as if you were holding yourself back.
Or, more accurately, spreading yourself too thin.
Youll never know what it was like for her to receive that first message.
How you were doing it even now, even though you were in a committed relationship.
You dont know how hard it was to keep it together, and how she almost didnt.
Youll certainly never know what it was like for her to receive all of the other messages, too.
How she started to become numb when they appeared, which was far too often.
She kept hearing in her memories when you said how she was the only girl you wanted.
How she was the best thing that had ever happened to you.
How she was the one you hoped to spend forever with.
That was your mistake.
You realized that once you let her go.
So, you take a stab at convince her to come back.
You tell her youve changed.
That you will never hurt her again.
When you let her go, you released her from that cycle of pain she had been trapped within.
It took her time and honestly, her heart is probably still healing from everything you put it through.
Nothing about you is familiar, nothing about you is home.
She cant read your messages without the words from those other women still slamming around inside of her head.
So no, she cant go back.
Even if she wishes she could.
Thats something youre just going to have to live with.
