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Updated 3 years ago,January 3, 2022
These streets arent helping me walk anymore.
They dontmoveme.They dont inspire me.
They dont excite me anymore.
These streets all look the same to me.
These corners are now filled with painful memories.
This city is now the hub of a life gone to waste and love stories turned to tragedies.
These homes dont make me feel safe anymore.
They scream loneliness.They scream confusion.
These homes are all temporary.
Tom Eversley
They dont feel like forever.
They dont want me to build a future in them, they dont want me to build a family.
These homes will always find a replacement.
These homes are not looking for people who want tostay.
These faces are getting old.
They say words they dont even mean.
They touch me but they dont feel me.
They look at me but they dont see me.
I feel better without them.
I crave my distance away from them now.
I dont look forward to the next time Ill see them.
I dont feel like they understand me and I dont feel like I belong.
Like Im one of them.I never did.
The world is moving on and this place makes me feelstuck.It feels like Im spinning in the same cycle.
I feel like Im running but Im not really going anywhere.
I forgot whats it like to shine.
I forgot what its like to glow.
I forgot what its like to take a break and enjoy life.
This place is not for me anymore.
Its just not for me.
Maybe this whole time Ive been in a one-sided relationship but I was in denial.
Maybe this whole time I was trying to find forever with someone whos only looking for something temporary.
But now I learned my lesson, I know what I want.I want forever.
I want a home.I want to wake up every day enthusiastic with a smile on my face.
I want to feel like I belong.
I dont want to feel unwanted.
I dont want to feel unloved.
I dont want to feel like Im forcing something thats not meant to be.
Im tired of running.
Im tired of hiding.
Im tired of faking it.
Im tired of pretending to be someone else.
Its time for me to move on.
Its time for me to walk away.
Its time to pack my bags and look for my next home.
This place is not for me anymore.
This place wont even miss me.
This place wont even care that Im leaving.
This place never really wanted me to begin with.
