You never wanted to live in Los Angeles.
I never wanted to live in New York.
There we were, standing on two different ends of the country unwilling to find common ground.
God & Man
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Updated 8 years ago,September 5, 2017
I thought about calling you before moving.
I thought about a lot of things.
About the finality of you knowing Im back in Los Angeles.
About the murky waters we left us in.
About your hand on my back in the elevator.
About your dimple.Always that damn dimple.
God & Man
Yesterday, I told Alyssa I dream about you two times a week.
I dont do it on purpose.
I dont even go to bed thinking about you.
In waking days, I have considered us done.
But somewhere in my REM cycle, you find me.
And its always the same.
I am guilty or you are.
Still, we cannot deny the truth.
Every damn time, we do.
But suddenly, we were back in the same time zone.
We were in the same state.
We were a 30 minute drive.
You knew my address and I knew your face.
I am trying to understand how we got here.
How we loved each other so intensely and still chose other things.
How we kept trudging along in other relationships, but still tried not to say the wrong names.
How dreams keep popping up even when Im convinced this is the last of us.
I thought about calling you.But I didnt.I didnt text.
I didnt let my heart take the microphone.
I am sorry for how far apart weve become.
I will always miss you.
