Were you even bothered that you left me hanging?
Are you even aware that you left me hanging?
Maybe I am waiting for something?
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A phone call perhaps?
Anything that I got used to receiving at 2 AM.
I have so many questions swirling in my mind that its starting to give me a severe headache.
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How did we even get to this point?
Why the sudden change of emotions?
What happened to the possibility of us being together?
Did you just want to make me fall for you, but never really intended to catch me?
Or was it you?
It wouldnt be this confusing, nor would it hurt this much if I have all the answers.
If you had cared enough to explain.
You just started acting as if things between us never really took place.
And here I am, starting to question myself if I just imagined all of those.
But if I did, why do I feel like a part of me is missing?
Do you still remember that time we had our very first 2 AM talk?
I was a mess, and you were there wanting to slowly declutter my life.
You dont fix someone who was honed by experience, you make that person realize how much shes grown.
Those were your exact words.
You told me you just wanted me to see myself from your point of view.
You said you just wanted me to realize that I am worth someones while.
Now tell me, was that a mistake?
Maybe I should not have even answered your phone call that day.
And so our strings of 2 AM meet-ups began.
From the shallowest conversations over coffee, to getting to know you deeper as each day went by.
You held my hand and believed in me when I didnt even trust myself.
As the song goes, Why do all good things come to an end?
and yes, this is the same question I have in my mind.
This non-existent relationship between us kept me wide awake at 2 AM.
You kept me waiting at 2 AM.
Crying over something that I never really had.
We shared months being there for each other.
We shared so many possibilities that I was actually looking forward to.
Wishing, praying and hoping for everything to come true.
And then you suddenly became aloof.
I started to backtrack.
What was it that made you into the person I could hardly recognize?
Was it because I told you I was falling for you?
Because I was certain thats where were heading.
Were you even bothered that you left me hanging?
Are you evenawarethat you left me hanging?
You see, I have an idea of whats happening.
Im familiar with the works of modern dating.
But could you blame me for being an old soul?
Is it too much to ask for something real, pure and sincere?
Thats how I saw you.
Thats what I thought you were.
Sadly, I was wrong.
To be honest, I dont even know why Im still waiting to get any answers from you.
I may be foolish, but Im not dense.
You being indifferent already says it all.
We all deserve an explanation, even if its not the one we want to hear.
Whatever happened along the way, I hope you just had the guts to tell me.
A closure wouldnt hurt.
And next time, yo do not deprive someone of that.
Closure leads to clarity, and clarity lightens a heavy heart.
Thatsthe least you could have given me after all youve put me through.
