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Updated 8 years ago,August 14, 2017
Of course I Internet searched you.
I feel like thats almost a given.
The thing is, I found out about you when we were still together.
Claudia Soraya
He was lost and I couldnt help him.
I realize that now, but of course at the time its a hard thing to accept.
We were at a concert.
Claudia Soraya
So he did the thing that made the most sense to hurt me to start texting someone else.
Then there you were, conveniently responding.
You even offered to grab a drink with him sometime.
I happened to see these exchanges when I plugged in his phone after he passed out.
I was hurt, but realized it was just a phone number.
There was no name.
I was too busy focusing on the issue at hand, which was our relationship and our happiness.
I was told you were a mistake.You were both drunk and you both apologized.
For the next month, I forgot about you because I had bigger priorities.
I was trying to help repair the 4 and a half-year relationship that was slowly slipping away.
Then you conveniently returned.Or did you really leave?
There was a moment though.
A moment of weakness.
I went for a drive.
Especially things that led up to this point.
I found myself driving over to his house to talk.
10:00 on a Monday night and his car wasnt even there.
Where else would someone be?
Right then and there I had a panic attack because I knew, he was with you.
Maybe he wasnt, who knows, but I damn well believed he was.
My intuition was correct though because he was.
You guys slept together.
I dont know how many times, but it happened.
Maybe youre actually a really nice person.
I like to believe the best in people, so Id like to hope you actually are.
Id like to hope that youre naive and realize your purpose in this situation.
Maybe you dont realize that hes having a crisis right now and feels the need to self-destruct.
Maybe all you want is a good time.
Maybe you dont realize that you slept with him as his most vulnerable.
If you do, well thats another story.
