I tried so hard, and then I tried even harder.
Still, I kept trying.
I believed anything that made me feel this strongly was worth fighting for.
diana spatariu
And thats where I went wrong.
I rationalized myself into a state of delusion masked as hopefulness.
Disrespect was disguised for passion where lust was cloaked as love.
I was taken advantage of because I allowed myself to be taken advantage of.
I fought for what I thought was worth fighting for as my heart was shattered.
Alone and abandoned, I wasnt able to pick up every piece.
What I couldnt carry, I left behind.
I lost a part of myself, and its too late to go back and get it.
I no longer crave love the way I used to because I no longer crave much of anything.
Im closed off and unwilling as I fight to see the good.
I stereotype, judge, and assume that what Im looking for may not be out there.
Maybe it never was, and perhaps it never will be.
Thats what it feels like right now.
Its like Ive hit rock bottom, with dating, relationships, love, all of it.
I may feel alone, but I know that Im not alone.
Heartbreak can stay with you without controlling you.
Ive fallen in a hole buts its up to me to pull myself out.
With the defeat comes the opportunity to conquer.
With victory comes the strength to evolve.
With solitude comes the chance for reflection and clarity.
With a clear mind, youre able to learn what hurts while discovering what strengthens you.
Getting thrown down allows you to figure out what its like to get back up.
I may not feel strong at this moment, but I will feel strong again.
And so will you.
