No matter how hard I tried to just move on, I couldnt.
I cared and longed to feel wanted too deeply, but in all the wrong ways.
While its one of my greatest strengths, its also one of my greatest weaknesses.
Daria Shevtsova
For the last year+ I have been navigating the on and off ups and downs of a toxic almost-relationship.
But no matter how hard I tried to just move on, I couldnt.
I cared and longed to feel wanted too deeply, but in all the wrong ways.
When I care for someone, I go all in.
I dont have to try or think twice because thats just who I am and how I love.
When I want someone, they know it and they dont question it.
He didnt have a love language that I would or could ever understand.
And at the end of the day, what Ive come to realize is that that is okay.
Sometimes it really is as simple as two people just not being meant for one another.
And that is okay.
This is not what you deserve.
You deserve to be appreciated in every way you give your love and energy to someone else.
You deserve to keep your standards high, because that means you will not allow yourself to settle.
You deserve to speak your mind freely and passionately without feeling ashamed or at fault.
You deserve to be reminded of how incredible, inspiring, and beautiful you are.
You deserve someone who proves their own worth through actions, not words alone.
You deserve the world remind yourself that no matter the situation, you are more than deserving.
You are healing and growing.
You are a badass modern woman who will not settle for less than the bare minimum.
Because that is what you do.
Someday, the heartache, the lessons, the tears, the uncertainty will all be worth it.
But today, tomorrow, and every day following, remind yourself that YOU are your number one priority.
YOU are your number one biggest fan.
YOU are mighty, and you are worth it.
