You were supposed to be my friend.
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Updated 7 years ago,May 3, 2018
You were supposed to be my friend.
Do you know what that is?
Do you know the basic characteristics of a friend are?
I guess knowing what they are and understanding them are two completely different things.
Silly me for asking that.
Youll wish you never ghosted me at some point or another.
What you did to me says nothing about my character and everything about yours.
Karma has a way of teaching people lessons.
Just because youre struggling with something internally does not give you the right to screw people over.
I remember telling you that on several occasions.
You cant venture to fix things for others when youre broken.
If I did do something wrong or hurt you in some way, I apologize.
How is anyone supposed to change or work on themselves if theyre unaware of what they did?
But you are too much of a coward and lack the maturity to discuss things with me.
You, my dear, are a master in the craft of manipulation.
The way you make people actually trust you and believe things you say.
Or the way you make people feel safe in your presence felt so natural its actually quite terrifying.
Probably not because you were more than confident that wouldnt happen on your end.
And I know I wasnt trying to be anything more than friends.
Truthfully, I dont want your friendship anymore.
And Im done reaching out to you in hopes youll one day explain it to me.
You cant say I didnt fight for it though.
I dont give up on anything or anyone.
Im just done reaching out for my own peace and sanity.
Ill be here if or when you are ready to own it.
Just because something is or was going on inside of you doesnt justify ghosting me.
But whatever you oughta tell yourself to sleep at night.
Just like so many others, youd rather hide behind bullshit than address it and change for the better.
Whatever bullshit you oughta feed yourself with just to stay alive is on you.
At least I get to live freely and with dignity.
To my knowledge, I did nothing to deserve this from you.
It wasnt like I neglected you because I was being selfish.
Quite the opposite, actually.
And what did you do with it?
Our friendship, that is.
You threw it in my face as if it was another way of saying fuck you.
Because youre a coward, a phony and a fake.
How many masks can one person possibly create and own?
Im not sure you could even recognize your own face because of the amount you own.
As for closure, this is my closure.
Obviously you werent intending on giving me the closure I truly deserve.
I sincerely hope one day you might apologize but I wont hold my breath waiting for it.
