And I know how hard it must have been to walk away.
The hardest part isnt moving on its going to be staying moved on and finally recovering.
Forgiving both yourself and someone who might never say sorry.
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And even though you might never get the apology you deserve it doesnt mean you cant heal.
These relationships are about cycles of coming and going.
Maybe he promised he would change.
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Maybe he blamed you for all of it and you believed him.
Maybe there were threats involved and you felt you had to come back.
Maybe you really did love him at some point and youre not sure how he even became this monster.
The thing about toxic relationships is they function because of dependency and control.
You dont need someone who has to tear you down to make themselves bigger.
Every mean thing hes ever said about you isnt true.
Because he didnt take care of you, he controlled you and theres a huge difference there.
Walking away is the first step to learning how to take care of yourself.
And thats the step he never wanted you to take.
The same one he swore he loved you at first.
How dare he be the one to try and ruin someone so wonderful but he didnt succeed.
Because the person you became as a result of this relationship is someone who is kinder.
Someone who is more compassionate.
Someone who loves harder than anyone knows how to simply because the love you deserved was denied to you.
You are someone understands the silence of strangers.
Someone who meets others pain with compassion.
Someone who deserves the most life has to offer you.
Most of all you are someone who doesnt need him in your life.
You dont need someone who treats you like property.
You dont need someone who doesnt have respect for you just because he doesnt have it for himself.
Any person who has self-respect doesnt treat people unkindly or bad and sure as hell doesnt abuse them.
You deserve someone who values you.
You deserve someone who loves you unconditionally.
You deserve someone who looks at you like youre the best thing that has ever happened to them.
And Im so sorry he didnt treat you the way you deserved.
Someones inability to love you isnt a reflection of you, its a reflection of them.
Your value doesnt decrease simply because he couldnt see your worth.
Because the truth is everyone else around you does.
He told you-you were the weak one but hes weak for needing someone to control.
And I know you think youre too blame.
He made you feel like it was your fault.
I know it feels like he ruined you.
But the way I see it, its just the beginning for you.
Because this relationship made you a better person.
You didnt deserve to endure what you did.
So I say again, Im proud of you.
Because youve been through hell and back and the good thing about that is thats the worst of it.
Everything moving forward will be easy now.
But you arent her anymore.
The version of yourself youve always deserved to be.
Andbecoming that personisnt going to happen overnight.
