I recall all of my worries and doubts as if I were inviting my fears into bed.

Still, I feel heavy from the weight of the burdens and the shame that I choose to carry.

I hold onto limiting beliefs like a lifeline and refuse to forgive myself for mundane and heavy things.

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I relentlessly force myself to bear the weight of my worries and hinder myself from healing.

But today, Ive decided that enough is enough and that forgiveness is overdue.

And Im choosing now to forgive myself for all of the things Ive been holding onto.

I forgive myself for procrastinating on my dreams.

I forgive myself for the excuses Ive replayed for years and for the guilt that comes with it.

I forgive myself for the time Ive wasted completing tasks rather than chasing my dreams.

I forgive myself for the shame that I carry like a locket around my neck.

I forgive myself for nearly choking myself with regret and for letting my ego drown my lungs with fear.

I forgive myself for punishing myself repeatedly the way I never would a lover or a friend.

I forgive myself for trying to hold myself and the relationship together with nothing but Scotch Tape.

I forgive myself for taking family time as a kid for granted.

I forgive myself for being so desperate for friendship and wanting people to like me.

I forgive myself for comparing myself to everyone else.

I forgive myself for judging myself so harshly over someone elses success.

I forgive myself for not feeling like enough based on other people who seem like more to me.

I forgive myself for hiding in the shadows for fear of being seen.

I forgive myself for making myself small and not taking up space.

I forgive myself for thinking I was a bad person after having one bad night.

I forgive myself for the mistakes that came with one more glass of wine.

I forgive myself for the fun that quickly turned into shame.

I forgive myself for turning off my brain because I had no more headspace.

I forgive myself for limiting my perception of beauty and not seeing it in myself.

I forgive myself for not supporting myself or showing myself some self-compassion.

I choose now to forgive myself.

And now I wonder: What can you forgive yourself for?

Today, let something go.