My family and I are originally from India and spent most of my life moving around the world.
This meant I only ever associated home with where my immediate family lived.
It left me feeling vulnerable and anxious, knowing that even a short visit could compromise my immunity.
It redefined my relationships, my sense of security, and my plans for the future.
This not only halted the progression of HIV but also made me unable to transmit the virus any longer.
This mindset made it easier for me to overcome any loss of friendships or relationships.
Embracing this approach was liberating.
This transparency required courage, but it also fostered deeper connections with those who stood by me.
When I share my status in casual conversation, I am often met with empathy.
Since becoming undetectable, my life has continued normally and remains relatively undisrupted by my diagnosis.
I get fatigued by their sympathetic condolences or being called an inspiration just for being openly positive.
Through my interactions, I have become acutely aware of the stigmas surrounding HIV and how they affect me.
Disclosing my status has on many occasions resulted in rejections from sexual partners, even if I was undetectable.
These encounters have sometimes culminated in verbal abuse and insulting accusations of sexual irresponsibility.
In these moments of vulnerability, I found it crucial to arm myself with knowledge and support.
Understanding that my undetectable status meant I couldnt transmit the virus gave me confidence.
Yet, the fear of judgment and the potential loss of intimacy lingered.
My life has continued to flourish even as someone who lives with HIV.
I am very hopeful for the future of HIV prevention.
