just dont call me for a while.
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Updated 5 years ago,July 22, 2020
No no, of course, everything is fine.
Its good to hear from you.
Lisa Fotios
Ive just been busy with work and school and navigating the uncertainties of life.
Yes, of course, I know.
Ive just been really busy and havent had a chance to call you back.
I wanted to call you, I really did.
I had every intention of calling you the second I saw your missed calls.
Ive filled my schedule so full and hardly have a moment in the day to talk.
No, Im not ignoring you, I promise.
I would never ignore you.
You remember how talked every day?
You would scream, Hey!
Are you alive over there?
Dont leave me hanging!
And then I would finally wake up to you laughing and screaming.
I dont you laugh much anymore.
I know, I know.
We dont talk even longer than twenty minutes now.
I didnt want to bother you, now that youre in a relationship.
I dont want to take too much time from you.
Im important to you?
Yeah, of course I know that.
Ive always known our friendship is important.
But maybe you need a bit more space for your partner than me right now.
I dont want to come in between you two.
As if you couldnt do those things any other time or after we hang up?
Im sorry, I dont mean to be angry at you.
Im just stating what it feels like when I call.
I really love your new partner.
You seem perfect together.
Things havent been perfect?
Well, its life, its not a film.
Your relationship is going to be rough no matter who youre with.
Thats how life is supposed to be.
No, I dont think your relationship should be like our friendship.
It doesnt involve love.
Ok yeah, youre right.
It involves love to some extent.
But its a friendly love.
Not a love committing a life together.
Im not committing my deepest desires and hopes with you.
Sorry, that wasnt meant to be offensive.
Yes, Im sharing intimate details of my life with you.
Well, not so much anymore since we dont talk as much.
Why dont I call you back?
Like I said, Ive been busy -
Youre right.
Thats not an excuse to refuse to make time for someone I claim to be my best friend.
No, theres nothing going on.
I dont remember that night.
I said a lot of things that night.
Yes, I know I said that.
No, Im not trying to passive-aggressively end our friendship.
No, theres nothing Im not telling you.
No, Im not being defensive.
I dont know why you have to make assumptions about how I feel.
Yeah, whatever, I know youve been busy too.
Youve got a new partner.
We all know this.
Im not angry about them.
Do you want to know the truth?
Im tired of hearing about them.
I dont care about how their life is going.
I care about you.
Yeah yeah ok, theyre a part of your life now too.
Yes, I probably should care.
When did you suddenly become a we?
You asked me whats going on.
Thats whats going on.
Of course you dont want to hear the truth.
Why do you think I refuse to call you back?
Our friendship has changed.
Weve all freakin changed.
No, hey dont call me for a while.
I cant believe youre even asking that question after this entire conversation.
What a stupid question to ask.
As long as youre with them, as long as youre a we, dont call me.
Why?Why??
Because unfortunately, Im in love with you.
