We never dated, even though we were attracted to each other.
Even though we were comfortable together.
Even though we made sense together.
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Even though we were comfortable together.
Even though we made sense together.
A lie that I tell myself to stay sane.
To protect myself from the truth.
In reality, we could have made it work.
We could have found more time for each other.
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We could have decided to rearrange our lives to make room for each other.
There wasnt anything keeping us apart, except for ourselves.
The reason must have been that you didnt want to put enough effort into our relationship.
The reason must have been you.
The truth is that we never got together because we were hesitant.
Because we were scared.
Because we were stupid.
Because we held ourselves back instead of spilling our souls.
Because we kept our distance instead of taking the leap into a real relationship.
We never got together and that isourfault.
That is all on us.
It feels wrong to keep blamingbad timingfor my mistakes.
I am in control of my own decisions.
You are in control of your decisions.
And together even though it might have been anunconsciousdecision we made the decision not to date.
We made the decision to fall apart instead.
But Im not going to let that realization hurt me.
Im going to let it empower me.
In the future, Im not going to let timing stop me from sending atext.
Im not going to let timing stop me from admitting how I feel.
Im not going to let timing stop me from chasing after the person that I want.
Im never going to let timing hold me back again, because what if the right time never arrives?
I would rather say something at the wrong time than never at all.
I would rather take a risk and regret it than regret the fact that I stayed silent.
Im finally able to accept that bad timing isnt the real reason why wenever dated.
That it was just my go-to excuse because I cant stand the possibility that I actuallyletyou get away.
