You are worth someone who gives a shit.
And this person clearly never did.
You feel like youre going to throw up.
God & Man
Tears spring from your eyes because you dont understand.
You didnt see this coming.
So many questions race around your brain and you cant fucking breathe because they were supposed to choose you.
They were supposed to choose you, right?
What makes her or him any better than you?
What makes them different or more special than you?
God & Man
What did they do that sucked this person in?
What magical powers do they possess that you never had?
What did you do wrong?
Yesterday, everything was perfectly fine.
Yesterday, he or she called and chatted with you.
They kissed you and you stood on your tip toes giddy with the thought of a forever with them.
But now those butterflies have flown away.
Your almost relationship has turned to dust.
What ifs and question marks dance around your mind and you cant bring yourself to calm down.
Like you lost the game.
Like you lost someone who you couldve fallen for.
Like you lost a part of you.
You sit on your apartment carpet floor trying to figure it out.
Trying to know when they started pulling away from you.
Trying to figure out what the hell you did to make them go for someone else.
Trying to understand what went on in their heads when they decided to be official with someone else.
You still dont know how it happened.
You call your best friends screaming at the phone.
You call your other friends because you dont know what else to do other than cry on the floor.
You feel so dumb.
You call your mom.
She doesnt have any words of wisdom, so you hang up and cry some more.
You feel like the time spent with thispersonwas a complete joke.
Like it was a waste of your time.
How did they play you so well?
Why did they do it?
Just to hurt you?
Just to make a statement?
But then your best friend tells you that he kind of sucked anyway.
He smoked too much weed.
He was too sarcastic.
He wasnt even that cute.
He wasnt nice to all your friends.
He always seemed sketchy.
You roll your eyes, but a tiny part of you agrees.
Maybe you were blinded by lust or love or whatever.
Maybe you just wanted to feel something for someone because it had been so long.
Maybe its for the best.
Maybe these two people belong together.
Maybe he or she never liked you anyways.
Maybe they just thought you were pretty.
Maybe they just thought you were cool for a couple of weeks.
Or maybe this is just some twisted, fucked up learningexperience.
Maybe this is just what you needed.
To get you out of your daydream.
To get you back into the real world.
I dont know if theres anything to learn from this, truth be told.
You feel like you are worthless.
But let me tell you something, you are lovable.
You are worth more than this person.
You are worth someone who gives a shit.
And this person clearly never did.
