No matter how hard youll venture to find the accurate words to describe it, its description-less.
Overthinkingeverything.Why did that person say this?
Why did that person do that?
God & Man
Why is he/she acting this way toward me?
Its a weight both on your mind and your chest.
Its racing thoughts and heavy breathing that you cannot control.
God & Man
Its that pit in your stomach that you cant shake.
Its that constant reminder that youre doing, or have done something, wrong.
Youre never actually good enough, smart enough, pretty enough, funny enough, kind enough.
Since youre not good enough, you may as well stop trying, right?
Since youre not good enough, people must not like you, right?
It gets the best of you and you start to believe it all.
You start to distance yourself as a way of avoiding it all.
The worst part about all of this, though, is that it comes out of nowhere.
Anxiety is that constant reminder that everything is not okay, when in reality, everything is.
Ive been dealing with anxiety and depression on some level for years now.
Acting out in ways that are so,sofar from the person that I really am.
Acting out in ways that are completely out of character.
At the time, I thought this was the answer to solve it all.
Unfortunately, as a result I often found that I only disliked myself more.
I used to let it win.
I used to let it control me.
The thing about anxiety is that it is not curable, but it is controllable.
Now, I have learned how to block out all that background noise.
I have learned to hear it out.
Ive learned to hear out all of those worries and irrational concerns.
Its not easy, of course.
But, youcanignore it.
Anxiety can only define you when you let it become the only voice you listen to.
And Ive had that phase.
We truly wish we could explain whats going on to you, but again, its seemingly impossible.
Be kind.I understand it is so easy to judge, say cruel things, or spread rumors about us.
We can be an easy target for topics of discussion, I get it.
People act, say, and do certain things under certain circumstances that may not be true to character.
And for the love of God, kindly be normal.Were still humans, just like everyone else.
Youre feeding into it and reminding us again that we have anxiety.
Dont let it win.
