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Updated 8 years ago,July 19, 2017
I was never supposed to be the other woman.
I was too good for that, I told myself.
If I couldnt be someones number one, I didnt want to be theirs at all.
Lissy Elle
Except somehow, it happened anyway.
I was 18 when I met him.
He was single then and I was starry-eyed, but we were just friends.
Lissy Elle
Then he got a girlfriend.
I tried to bury my feelings and walk away, but I struggled trying to keep them under wraps.
And as it turned out, so did he.
Sometimes I forgot he had a girlfriend at all.
When we were together, no one else existed in the world.
But of course, thats not how things really work.
Even when we were together, just the two of us, my illusion was always shattered.
I hated it because maybe they had the right idea and I was the one wrong all along.
But all of that didnt seem to matter when things were going well.
The good times were just sogood.
And that was my downfall.
I was trapped in a toxic cycle of guilt and longing.
Its feeling justified and then realizing that youre exactly the person you grew up hating.
What had once been the best thing about my life had been the thing to ruin it all.
And thats what it feels like to be the other woman.
Because in the pursuit of gaining someone elses love, you start to lose your own.
