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Updated 4 years ago,December 26, 2020
I dont wanna rush into anything.
Shes getting over someone too, kinda like me an you.
An she talks about him every once in a while, an I just nod my head an smile.
Jose Luis
Cause I know exactly what shes goin through… yeah, Ive been there too.
When the conversation turns to you.
-Keith Anderson
It happened exactly as they said it would.
Unlike in the past, there werent mixed signals.
There wasnt any bit of confusion.
There wasnt a bit of uncertainty.
It was just looking at someone and knowing okay this is going to be something.
So when I cried myself to sleep that night it crushed me.
When I woke up to a good morning text it stung a little.
Because you are still hurting and processing this pain as someone new enters the picture.
Theres the pain of love lost and still thinking about that person.
Still wondering if theyll change their mind.
Still hurting but trying to heal.
I know its not right.
Physically I was there but emotionally I wasnt.
You want to be over them but even that will take time.
You didnt ask to fall in love.
You didnt ask to get your heart broken.
And you certainly didnt ask for fate to throw someone at you when you werent ready.
But maybe thats how its supposed to be.
And you arent falling too hard or too fast.
You arent feeling much at all.
You become numb as a defense mechanism.
When pain is all you know everything that isnt feels weird.
And you want to explain it to them, this is what Im going through right now.
But you know they deserve a fair shot.
You dont want to put pressure on them thinking they need to heal you.
And you wish you could give them your best but all of it is a process.
Or that you are comparing them to someone else.
So instead you stay silent trying to move forward even if its baby steps.
Maybe your heart isnt in it completely.
I mean how could it be?
So instead you divert your attention to someone who is giving you theirs.
But you know sometimes all it takes someone treating you right and loving you right.
Maybe they arent what you want but maybe they are exactly what you need.
