He taught me how to fall and break and crumble.
But he also taught me that I am stronger than I think.
And eventually, I began to build myself back up.
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Without his hand to hold.
But, I dont think theres only one person out there for you.
Maybe five years from now Ill come to the conclusion that he wasnt one of my soulmates.
Maybe I wont even believe in them anymore.
But, right now?
I still think he was one.
And its been three years since Ive even seen him.
I never in a million years thought we would ever end.
In the mindset of someone who was twenty-one, I thought we were rare.
I thought we were the ones who would make it.
Everyone doubted us, except him and I.
He told me the distance was too much to handle.
He told me we had to be our own people without each other.
He told me he wanted to explore.
To his explore his options.
I told him he was breaking my heart.
I know, he softly replied.
I thought he would change his mind eventually.
I talked to his friends trying to convince them to talk to him.
I became a walking ghost.
I didnt want to go out or drink or party.
I just wanted to do nothing, to feel nothing.
And then in August, I got a call.
He was going to college in a different country.
And thats when I knew.
I can say with a hundred percent of my heart, that he was one of my soulmates.
He was my person.
He was my first love, and I think a part of me will always love him.
We were together for three and a half years.
We were a dynamic duo.
We just got each other.
And we couldnt get enough of one another.
When we ended, I lost a innocent part of me that believed in fairytales and happily ever after.
I lost the six year old part of me that believed that true love could last forever.
That true love could fix anything.
That true love could make me whole.
I lost a piece of my heart to him.
Maybe Ill never get it back.
But he taught me something.
Something so crucial that helped shape me into the person I am today.
He taught me to love myself.
He taught me that there is life without love.
That love doesnt solve everything.
That love wont make me any happier.
And for that, I am so thankful.
Im happy we ended.
Im happy I got to experience what it means to love someone with my whole heart.
But most importantly, Im happy that I showed myself that I can get over anything.
That I can survive anything.
Even the loss of a soulmate.
