She swears she is fine when the opposite is true, because she doesnt want to cause a problem.
She doesnt want to be a bother.
The person they trust more than anything.
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The person who they wish they felt comfortable talking to about anything and everything.
She doesnt want to be a bother.
After all, she isstrongenough to handle them alone.
She can get over them without outside help.
The only emotion she is comfortable expressing is anger.
If she is annoyed, she wont hold herself back from talking about it.
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But if she is genuinely upset about something to the point of tears?
She will cry in her room.
Like she should have been able to hold herself together.
Like there is something wrong with her for being real for once.
She hates letting hervulnerableside show.
That is why she is so bad at having tough conversations.
When her person gets annoyed with her, her first instinct is to defend herself.
She feels like she has to explain why she didnt do anything wrong.
Why she had a right to do whatever it is that she did.
Even worse, during intense conversations, she checks out.
She stares at her phone.
She looks everywhere, except into her persons eyes, because she feels uncomfortable with emotions.
She doesnt want to talk about how she feels.
She would rather talk about it later that night over text so that she has some space.
Or better yet, she would rather pretend that the problem doesnt exist at all.
Since she feels so uneasy around emotions, she doesnt know what to do when confronted with rawhonesty.
When her person cries in front of her, what is she meant to do?
Make them laugh and forget about it?
Encourage them to talk about it?
Its hard for her to deal with all of the emotions that being in a relationship entails.
But she is trying.
It might not look like it, but shereallyis.
