They lay a finger on you and you shudder.
Its another word to add to your vocabulary to identify your symptom of lacking the ability to feel pleasure.
Another word to describe your lack of interest in going out.
Larm Rmah
Another word for your indifference towards all the wonders that usually make you feel exhilarated.
Is it the dark thing?
Could this just be a symptom of depression?
Larm Rmah
Is the dark thing coming back again?
Does my depressed self not love this person, or is it my real self?
You know the difference.
Your whole logic, your whole emotions, your whole intuition arent things ruled by a mental illness.
When you know, you know.
You were disaster before you met them.
you’re able to go back to being hurricane with or without them.
What little they did to calm the waters is something you know is no longer there.
This person used to be your light during the phases you had none.
Right now theyre the clouds that brought on the snow.
Right now you feel even lonelier than on your own.
Right now theyre only a dent on the bed lying next to you.
Right now youre hoping they wont try touching you because you dont have it in you to pretend anymore.
Right now youre exhausted of the act.
Right now all youre doing is smiling and pretending like what there is between you is anything but history.
They lay a finger on you and you shudder.
Youre feeling something in your stomach, and its humming, but it isnt love.
They used to make it easier for you to breathe, and right now theyre stealing your air.
You loved them once.
But then all you did was take their shape because it was easy.
But youre realizing its better to be alone and bruised than it is to be malleable.
That its better to be on your own, than in something that no longer makes you happy.
Right now theyre still in the room but they feel like a ghost.
We all need love.
You want this but you dont want this.
You do so knowing that when depression comes you will be one body short to feel the emptiness.
Youre gone and you dont have them anymore and it only hurts because it doesnt.
