You wanted solitude, not loneliness.
Except now you feel lonely.
Now youre stuck between hating the idea of being social and also being sad that no one is around.
Kleiton Silva
Still, you find yourself annoyed at the fact youre single.
It is a conflicting existence and that makes it all the more stressful.
You only know how to be content.
you could be fiercely dependent at times to an unhealthy extent.
Your friends are there to support you, but theyre not a replacement for loneliness.
When they become an essential step in your healing, you lose the ability to heal yourself.
You start to get scared that theyll leave you, as others have done in the past.
You get scared that if they do leave, youll have nothing left and no way to cope.
You start constantly checking that they still love you.
They can tell you they love you as much as they like and you will still be scared.
Thats because youre sensitive.
Youre emotional and you hold a lot of care in your heart.
None of those things are bad.
But without knowing the difference betweenhappinessand contentedness, they can be toxic.
Okay, great, so thats the issue you already knew you had.
Thanks for that, Liam.
Now, whats the solution?
Well, do youactuallyknow what you love?
Do youactuallyknow what makes youhappyand not justcontent?
Happy:The consistent state of feeling a pleasant, sunny disposition.
More than just okay with life as it currently stands in that moment.
Imagine youre a super smart, super attractive person.
You probably already are, but if youre reading this, you probably also dont believe it that much.
But imagine it, and then imagine you want to date that person.
You want to knoweverythingabout this desirable diamond of a human.
You want to find out anything you’re able to to make it wow them into loving you.
Think about the questions youd ask them and ask yourself:
What do you enjoy doing?
Where do you like being?
And where would you go if you had the money?
What do you like to do with your friends?
What makes you happy?
You dont have to work out your whole life story, just the simple things.
Find out what makes you happy in life and fight for it at every occasion.
Youll feel lighter and youll have more patience.
Youll have more time for everyone else and will understand how to be alone.
So go find your infinity and be happy.
