Draw a bath at 7:14 PM and commit yourself to staying in and feeling sorry for yourself.
Forget to pay attention to the temperature and end up dunking yourself into something near boiling.
Ignore it when your skin starts screaming at you.
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Hope that the version of you that emerges is somehow detoxified.
Spill wine on yourself and watch it run down your chest into the water.
Remember that everything can be cleansed, even you.
Wonder, admittedly sadistically, how long it took for them to decide they were over you.
have a go at picture in your mind how they described you to other people.
Imagine all the adjectives they put next to your name over the years.
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Its not really sad, its not really anything.
That promises arent forever.
That someones world will turn without you in it.
But realize that as much as youre obsessing, you cant picture it.
That you dont remember what it sounded like when they said your name.
That youre not their one, and that theyre not yours either.
That the longevity of a love doesnt determine its reality, its magnitude.
And that moving on from it doesnt mean it didnt happen.
That it doesnt matter.
And realize, that that fact doesnt have to be something to be sorry over.
That its worth moving past.
That its not really anything.
