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Updated 6 years ago,October 6, 2019
You hurt me.
And now you want to come back.
You want me to forgive you for everything that happened.
Etienne Boulanger
You want me to give you another chance and act like everything is fine between us again.
Its not fair that youre making me choose between a relationship with you and my mental health.
I shouldnthaveto turn you away.
I shouldnthaveto play the bad guy.
I shouldnthaveto decide whether Im going to involve you in my life moving forward.
Im not mad at you for trying to ease your way back into my world.
Im mad at you for giving me a reason to push you out of my world to begin with.
Its not fair that we spent so much time apart.
Its not fair that you became a stranger.
Its not fair that I have all of these painful memories of you.
Its not fair that it turned out this way between us.
Its not fair that this is where our story led.
Either way, Im losing out yet again.
If you come back, it isnt going to be easy to reconnect with you.
Its going to hurt like hell.
Its not fair that this is happening to me.
Its not fair that I feel this way.
Its not fair that you brought us to this point.
Theres always going to be a million moments that we want erased.
Its not fair that you put me through so much hell when I didnt do anything to deserve it.
Its not fair that there isnt anything I can do to change the past or evenforgetthe past.
And its not fair that I have to keep using that word you always warned me not to use.
That word that comes across as childish and immature.
That word that is meaningless, pointless, useless.
