She is no longer actively looking for love.
If anything, she is avoiding it.
She stopped going after who she wanted.
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She doesnt even try anymore because it always ends indisappointment.
Every time she puts herself out there, she is rewarded with another broken heart.
Another reason to add to her long list ofwhy Im going to stay single forever.
She doesnt even try anymore because she can predict how it is all going to end.
She is going to fall for someone.
They are going to make her feel like they like her, too.
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And her heart is going to be shattered.
She doesnt even try anymore because the highs arent worth the lows.
Drunkenly flirting at parties with people she will never see again?
Swiping right on strangers who are only interested in sex?
Excitedly telling her friends about a new guy who will inevitably let her down just like all the others?
She is going to pass.
She is going to sit home and watchStranger Thingsinstead.
To apply her liner and lashes three times until she gets it right.
To plaster on a fake smile for twenty-four hours straight.
Most days, she would rather leave the house in sweatpants and earbuds to block out everyone around her.
She is no longer actively looking for love.
If anything, she is avoiding it.
She doesnt even try anymore because she hates herselfandloves herself.
She turns down dates because she knows she deserves betterandbecause she doesnt think she deserves the person at all.
Because she doesnt want the stress of datingandbecause she doesnt want to be loved back.
She is rewarding herselfandpunishing herself by staying single.
She doesnt even try anymore because she is sick of putting inone-sided effortthat is never reciprocated.
She doesnt have the energy to chase after someone who keeps running in a different direction.
Even if she managed to latch onto them, nothing good would come from it.
The most she would get is a kiss, a one-night stand, an almost relationship.
She doesnt even try anymore because she has lost hope of finding someone who will treat her right.
Who will answer her texts as soon as he sees them.
Who will delete his dating apps.
Who will introduce her to his family.
Who will say goodbye to his bachelor days in exchange for a chance at monogamy.
She has no clue what cupid has in store for her.
