When people told me, well, you didnt even date… Dont let some label or lack there-of make you convince yourself it wasnt real.
Because no one can rewrite the history you have with someone.
And when its a physical or emotional relationship that has been lost its okay that it still hurts.
God & Man
Its okay to replay that final goodbye like it was a breakup even though you were together.
Because something did end.
Even if there isnt a name for that something.
God & Man
When people told me, well, you didnt even date…
When you fight for someone for however long you might have.
When you pour your heart out to them.
When you never stop giving up even when they are the ones who ask you to.
When the thought of them just makes all of these feelings so simple.
Wanting them to just want you.
Hoping one day they turn around and okay lets do this.
When physically its the relationship that ruins you for anyone else who touches you.
When emotionally you look for that familiarity in someone knowing you better than you know yourself.
Looking for them in the eyes of strangers hoping you find yourself there.
Even if you arent those people anymore.
Its okay to still wonder.
Its okay to play the what if game.
Because at one point you truly believed it could have been something more.
Looking at them and seeing a future you wanted so badly to become a reality.
Someone who knows you.
Someone who knows to call you back when you hang up.
Someone who can hear it simply by the tone of your voice.
Someone who knows when something is off and knows exactly how to respond to it.
Someone who knows you to the core of who you are.
They know your habits and corks.
They know your triggers but dont use it against you.
They know your secrets but keep them in confidence.
They know your vices and dont judge you for it.
And you know its always going to be there.
Thats what youve been looking for in everyone else.
When they are someone who has learned your past because theyve lived with you through it.
Someone who has seen every version of who youve become up to this point.
Someone who knows you because they made you who you are.
That first look.
That first I love you.
That moment you realized you could trust them with everything.
That moment someone you cared about asked you to choose between them and you.
And you would have walked had they let you.
Thats when you know they are the right choice.
No one can take the history you have with someone away.
No one can rewrite it.
And even if they forget some parts, its okay to always remember.
How much you were willing to sacrifice.
People spend their entire lives looking to love someone that much.
And when youre lucky.
When youre really lucky, they choose to love you back.
But someone choosing us is never within our control.
Even if you still think they can.
That isnt up to you to decide.
But waiting for someone like that is a prison sentence with no end in sight.
Sometimes the people we love say goodbye because they are ridding you of that waiting.
They know you would have never quit them.
You already proved that.
