I wasnt surprised though punctuality was never in your list of priorities.
I thought about leaving and not telling you where I would go.
But I had an important thing to say.
Paoo Raeli
The traffics really bad.
And I almost laughed at your question, because everything about us was wrong.
I waited here for almost an hour.
I said a little too loudly, my voice shaking.
Maybe thats the problem.
Well, arent we?
I looked you in the eyes, daring you to have a staring contest with me.
But you bowed your head down and stared at the ocean.
Im not in the mood for this.
Can we just go get some dinner?
You tried to sweet-talk me, confidently believing that you could work your magic in me.
Im not really hungry anymore.
Im just going to go home.
You dont have to do this, you know.
You were starting to get frustrated.
The wind blew my hair and for a moment I didnt know what to say.
Few seconds passed and no words wanted to leave my mouth.
You reached for my hands and you were stunned when I pulled back.
What is it youre not telling me?
This isnt working out anymore.
Why are you saying this?
Is there someone else?
What the hell are you talking about?
I dont know what Im talking about!
I said with intense emotion.
I could feel some strangers turning to look at us.
I put my hands on my head, attempting to put myself together.
See thats the thing.
I have no idea where this relationship is going.
I have no idea what I want.
Im clueless about so many things in my life right now.
I can help you.
We can still fix this.
I just want to figure things out on my own right now.
And maybe its for the best if Im just alone.
I waited for you to respond but you stayed quiet.
I know youre going to find someone else whos going to be so sure of who they are.
And Im not that person at the moment.
You didnt want to meet my eyes.
And I took that as a cue to leave.
We had the right love story but the world set us up at the wrong time.
Maybe if I swallowed my feelings, we would still be together by now.
But you were aware that I wasnt the punch in who would suppress my emotions.
And I apologize for not even trying.
I just walked away all of a sudden because thats what I do when Im scared.
And I regret leaving you like that.
I regret not being completely honest with you about the thoughts that were bothering me in my mind.
I regret not giving you my entire soul when you absolutely entrusted me yours.
I regret not fighting for a relationship that could potentially last a lifetime.
But mostly, I regret breaking your heart.
And maybe then well get to prove to ourselves that love is sweeter the second time around.
