Ive learned to live my life without you.
It doesnt pain me waking up anymore.
My head doesnt jolt in whatever direction of someone saying your name.
God & Man
I dont miss you.
I learned what it truly felt like to watch someone fall out of love with you.
I learned what rock bottom actually felt like.
God & Man
I learned very quickly how none of us are immune to depression if love is in the picture.
And how its almost normal to feel those things so heavily when a relationship ends.
I learned what it was like to lose yourself to someone else.
I learned what it was like to try a little too hard.
I learned about compromising my self-respect trying to get someone to stay.
Like my role was to convince another person that I was worth it.
So when people ask do I miss you, I say no.
Because I dont miss the person either of us became at the end of it.
The part of you I miss was the version of who you were when you loved me.
The part of you I miss is the life we had together.
There are parts of you and me I miss.
Because it was in losing you I found myself again.
Do I miss you?
Its not easy to just move on.
Its the start of finding someone even better.
Its impossible to see that in the beginning.
But the love you deserve isnt one that will hurt you, then return, realizing the mistake.
The love you deserve wont have to make that mistake in the first place.
