When you arent angry with someone, theres nothing to project.
When you havent lost yourself, theres no one to go searching for.
It wasnt hard to do, but it has been hard to get over.
Allan Filipe
Its a whole different beast, I tell you, falling out of love with someone youve never hated.
Or maybe its more than that.
In past relationships, I always stayed too long and because of that devolved into someone unrecognizable.
A grisly version of myself.
Resentful and enraged and yet always still grasping backwards or to the side, toward someone new.
Im not sure how obvious this was to my exes.
They always circled back.
I tell you this because sometimes our devastation is entirely internalized.
Sometimes someone mistakes the volume of our tears with the magnitude of our love.
When you arent angry with someone, theres nothing to project.
When you havent lost yourself, theres no one to go searching for.
And how ungracious that would be to overlook that.
