You lay there for a moment wondering if they miss you too.
Wondering if today will be the day you hear from them.
Then another day without them begins.
God & Man
Everyone says itll go away.
Itll stop hurting so much.
But when youre overcome with just this numb feeling that doesnt subside, you just want to lay there.
God & Man
You dont want to get up.
You dont want to move.
You dont want to do anything that day.
You want simply to make it go away.
Its just there consuming all that you are.
Its there with every thought.
And you replay the past in your mind thinking about what led up to this.
What you could have changed.
Was it your fault?
How do you fix this?
Then you muster any strength you have left to just get up and start your day.
Every song you listen to.
Every step that you take.
Every word that you say.
And youre going through the motions but you feel lost and empty and hollow.
Like when they left they took everything that made you who you were.
When they left they took the best parts of you.
Because in your mind the best part of you was always them.
And youve felt and overcome pain before but this time its different.
This time it doesnt feel like you are going to heal or get better.
Maybe just learn to live without them.
Learn to live broken.
24 hours seem so long when you are fixated on the past.
No one wants to hear you arent even hungry.
And you wonder how can you feel everything so deeply for someone who doesnt even care that youre hurting?
Because there was once a time they did.
And the past plagues you with regret as you replay all the good moments.
And thats what haunts you the most are the good times.
And you cling to it like its something youll forget.
But the truth is even if you had the choice to forget them you wouldnt want to.
Given it your all.
