I saw the person I fell for in glimpses.
Which made me tolerate the BS.
I didnt want you to be that person.
God & Man
The truth revealed itself like some storm hitting and I was caught in the eye of it.
I truly believed things would play out differently than they did.
Or maybe thats what I told myself and wanted to believe.
God & Man
Maybe I looked for every reason to lead myself to that conclusion.
I believed you cared.
I believed every text was because you wanted to talk to me not because you were bored.
There had to be.
I couldnt have been the only one feeling that.
Maybe Im crazy for thinking all these things and thinking something was there.
Because I thought you felt it too.
A connection I couldnt explain.
A common ground I thought we were both standing on steadily.
I was trying so hard to understand things like attention one moment, then ignoring me the next.
I was trying so hard to understand when I ignore one snap why were three more sent.
Were you trying to get my attention?
Because you always had it.
But youd choose one moment just to not be consistent with it.
Everything about you was inconsistent and confusing and threw me for a loop in ways only rides could.
Maybe it was just a game to you.
Maybe you liked knowing how high someone would jump when you told them too.
You liked knowing someone loved you when regardless of how you treated them.
You liked the attention.
You liked the ego boost.
And I cant blame you for it.
We all need someone sometimes.
We all use people sometimes.
But you built yourself up at the cost of knocking me down.
You were using me and taking advantage of me and I saw it.
I cant sit here and say Im angry or hate you.
And I know someone will get all the good you have to give.
Youll love someone wholeheartedly the same way I did you only theyll get your best.
We both deserve someone great.
I deserve better and you deserve someone youre more sure of.
I just kept holding on, wishing it would be you at the end of all of this.
