Even though it weighs nothing, a dream is the heaviest thing you will ever struggle with.
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Updated 5 years ago,June 3, 2020
Our days are xeroxed.
Battling our alarms and waking up after five snoozed through attempts.
Drew Wilson
Listening to the traffic horns lament and ache in the slow procession towards the inner city.
Im somewhere Ill be at for the next eight hours of my day.
Im somewhere I could possibly end up for the next thirty years of my life.
Drew Wilson
The new normalcy is having our days eaten and gaining nothing real in return.
The US Treasury should just print Cesare Borgias face on the dollar bill so we can all stop pretending.
A quote I found while wasting time instead of working on my novel.
This is the Great American novel Ive been occasionally digging at for over a year now.
I sit slumped in my chair, hoping the motivation somehow sticks this time.
I pick up my phone to feed my dopamine some bird app asininities and Redtube rabbit holes.
Even though it weighs nothing, a dream is the heaviest thing you will ever struggle with.
Society didnt prep me for this.
Now Im battling with things like responsibility, discomfort, willpower and various other elements of inner child abuse.
Motivation is fleeting and my patients are perspiring.
I can smell his Cool Water cologne before I actually see him.
Hes closing in on fifteen years of his stint and the effects are noticeable.
His bad posture has put a permanent slump in his back.
The sedentary lifestyle has contributed to his expensive, dollar menu waistline that constantly needed to be maintained.
The extra kilos have weighed down on him and turned his knees into barometers.
He looks sad, and not the sad day kind of sad either.
The kind that becomes a part of who you are.
you might look in his eyes and tell the the fight is long gone.
He just surrendered to the circumstances.
Occasionally, I glance over at him too quickly and swear I see myself.
I know that I should be writing daily, leaving as little to luck as possible.
But time has no conscience.
Time is not your ally.
As I watch as the future becomes the past while Im stuck in the same place.
Theres always another day.
Sometimes you just need to sell yourself a dream to wake up.
