Simple chores deplete all of your energy for the day.
They dont realize how hard it is for you to even show up to their room.
When you have anxiety, the easy tasks everyone else takes for granted take you hours to complete.
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Sometimes, you dont complete them at all.
Sometimes you let your anxiety win.
I cannot make a phone call without twenty minutes of preparation beforehand.
Then I will double check the number.
The tiniest tasks can take me hours to complete.
I will have to search the restaurant website for the menu to confirm I know what I am ordering.
I want to be the spontaneous friend.
The one you’re free to call at the last second and invite out for drinks.
But that is never going to be me.
I am never ready to leave the house on short notice.
I need to know our plans ahead of time.
I need to give myself enough time to get into the right mental state to socialize.
I am not good with surprises.
I do not like having activities sprung on me at the last second.
I am not flexible when it comes to my schedule.
I like to know what I am getting myself into so I can prepare myself for whats to come.
When you have anxiety like me, five-minute tasks take twenty minutes.
And that is okay.
As long as you are reaching your goals, it doesnt matter how long it takes you.
It only matter that you are trying.
