You have a long list of excuses to stay, but not a single actual reason to.
He used to bring you snacks and show you off- those days are long gone.
Your friends are sick of repeating themselves.
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You have a long list of excuses to stay, but not a single actual reason to.
You love him, your friends get that.
Youre that girl now.
Youre the girl whos with the guy that treats her worse than shes ever been treated.
It will get better.
This person lies in ways youve only seen a certain peach-colored president do.
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The girls with the shitty boyfriends have a lot of love and a lot of fear.
Theres a lot of attachment, fears of abandonment which are on par with self-worth and self-respect.
What if no one else loves them?
Equally, is this what forever would be?
I used to be the girl with the most amazing boyfriend.
The first words out of his mouth were what can I do for you?
and he was a devout Muslim, always giving to the less fortunate (me).
We never argued, I to this day trust him with my life.
My current boyfriend didnt get my anything for my birthday.
Hes never gotten me anything.
Yep, my shitty boyfriend.
My shitty boyfriends friends all feel sorry for me.
I feel sorry for me.
I cant find another shitty boyfriend though, no ones this shitty!
I am the girl with no self-respect.
The choice, the consent and the willingness to self-harm are there.
The shitty boyfriend is just a tool.
Equally though, theres no way the girlfriend knew this was who her partner is.
Maybe hell become collected, wont scream at her for being in his proximity when they live together.
Maybe shell have an actual boyfriend, not just the shell of one.
The connection to him replaces the connection to herself.
She has to hate herself enough to accept the love he gives her.
Theres very little joy, very little oh, baby, you didnt have to!
moments if any, and a lot of sadness in having a shitty boyfriend.
Lots of giving, lots of doing things for him and a whole lot of nothing in return.
