You mistake it for love, because you have not yet learned what love really is.
But, toxicity can only last so long before you roll to feel your insides decaying.
I just couldnt help myself.
Henri Pham
You were drawing me in like a scented candle with your dangerous flame.
A run from responsibilities, an escape from the world, a distraction from pain.
Thats exactly what you werea distraction from pain, yet a source to it as well.
Henri Pham
You mistake it for love, because you have not yet learned what love really is.
And you did, you always did.
When youre in atoxic relationship, its difficult to see.
Its when others start to point it out for you that you take a stab at alter your perspective.
I wanted to love you.
When I finally spoke my feelings out loud, the words felt like ashes on my tongue.
I realized that a soul cant be fixed by another that is in the same broken condition.
The poison only spreads.
Thats the thing thoughpeople like us are used to pain.
If anything, we embrace it.
Its the fuel that keeps us going.
Its the drive that takes us to our destinations.
Its the attraction that draws the curious in.
We mistake hurt for healing, breaking as building, suffocating as living and leaving for loving.
We communicated through coping mechanisms, through escapes, through our pain.
I wish it wasnt that way.
I wish I couldve helped you grow, because I knew you could.
Because,Im still brokentoo.
I need to heal too and two people who know nothing of healing cant repair each other.
Two people with poison filling their veins and toxins steering their minds will only feed off of those addictions.
