It wasnt that I wanted him back, I wanted him to want me back.
I wanted him to miss me the way I missed what we once had, what he ruined.
I wanted to know I was on his mind the way he consumed my thoughts.
I wanted him to realize he lost someone who would have given him the world.
But, more than anything, I wanted him to want me back just so I could say NO.
During the self-loathing period of my breakup I couldnt leave the couch.
God & Man
All I could do was binge watchGreys Anatomyon Netflix and feast on tubs of Ben and Jerrys.
He was like a remote control, any button he clicked I gave an immediate response.
I stopped thinking about my own needs and focused on accommodating him or he would get upset.
He spread a rumor about me to our friends to try and sway their opinion of who I was.
This made me want to hear from him even more.
I wanted an explanation of how he could be so cold.
Days went by, then weeks, and then months; and slowly I felt better.
I spent less time on the couch and more time going out with my friends.
But then one time, it was.
After much deliberation, we came to the consensus:HELL NO.
So when you get the ex text you thought would never come, here is why you dont respond.
I repeat DO NOT text your ex back.
A vague text is just another form of manipulation proving he is just trying to string you along again.
Controllers like dependent and weak people because they can use you to make themselves feel above you.
Girl, you are too strong, too beautiful, and too smart tofall for that.
Remember what he put you through and know you deserve so much more than that.
So, you need a touch of petty with your newfound self-worth?
Dont waste your time entertaining his manipulation or coming up with aperfected response.
OR redefine your will power.
