What happens when your heart isn’t broken, but it doesn’t feel full either?
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Updated 7 years ago,November 22, 2017
What the heck is this feeling?
Or is the cold weather just making me lose my mind?
Mitchell Orr
Like Im just frozen, but I just want to burn or feel something that isnt nothing.
Im not totally sad or down about my life, but at the same time Im not totally enthused.
I think Im just… comfortable.
Which can be a dangerous position to be in.
I preach and I write and I talk about living my life to the fullest.
Im all about the big gestures.
Mitchell Orr
Im all here for the huge and life changing moments.
But what about the moments in between?
What about the life thats lived in the middle of a big event or another huge life choice?
What happens to ordinary days where you are just living life?
What happens when your heart isnt broken, but it doesnt feel full either?
Im not lonely, but I wouldnt say I feel entirely fulfilled.
Im not anxious, but Im not really calm either.
Im not bored, but I feel like I need to do something more than what Im doing.
But I dont want to just be here.
I dont want to just float through life, not amounting to anything.
I want to fall and fail and make a run at fly some more.
I want to fall madly in love with my life and with someone else.
I want to go on adventure after adventure.
I dont want to remain so numb to the world.
I want to find some kind of meaning in every single day.
Even the quiet and cold ones.
Even the ones that dont seem to say anything at all.
And I want to find meaning in the in betweens.
In between the happy and sad, in between the lonely and loving.
I want to find the extraordinary in the ordinary.
